joy shortlived

3 days ago, i was absolutely ecstatic as i have just booked myself a holiday to Melbourne for a week... all by myself. I was scheduled to go there with my BFF, but she couldn't get the leaves from her SUCKY company.. :( As i have been feeling restless and depressed lately, i thought i'll do myself a favour by giving myself a holiday break. I am not too keen to travel alone but am not against the idea either. Anyway, people around me reacted differently to my news. My colleagues and friends were happy for me.. whilst my parents especially my dad was not happy at all. Reason he gave: not fun/silly going alone, dangerous, what's the rush?, and another one was "so much money ah?". Sigh.. I did put a good defense by saying: freedom, the good deal i got from the tickets etc. Anyway, on Sunday, my sister suddenly says, "what the heck, i join you lah". So yay, i was happy i have a travelling partner at last. So we booked her flight on Sunday. Come night time, my dad suddenly brings this topic up again and then suddenly it turns to "why never ask my permission" issue. Worst part, my mum joins the bandwagon. My: 1. i am an adult. i don't need to ask permission 2. it is not a big deal!jeez 3. my sister is coming along for heaven's sake. whats the issue now?? 4. its an online offer thingy. time is limited. i got no time to 'wait' for your official approval :P 5. i have to clear my effing 27 days of leave by this year! the timing is just right. Not much work projects/burden at this moment. 6. its my moola $$$!! .... all fell to deaf choosing-to-be-deaf ears. And now thanks to them, i lost my mood to travel. Dont get me wrong. I am not an ungrateful child or i hate my parents or anything of that sort. If anything, i love them to death. I have sacrificed my fair share to for them too. I have always lived by their rules. I have always TRIED to be as honest as i can to them. I have even sacrificed my feelings to someone for their sake (and let me tell u it has NOT been easy for me to do that!).In short, i have never done/decided anything (even when i wanted to!) because i know it will break their hearts. A quick check with my BFF on how she handles her 'parents' (exact carbon copies of my parents), and she said, "i dont even bother telling them the truth anymore." So when she goes to Yogyakarta next month with her boyfriend, her parents are happily thinking its a work assignment. Maybe i should start the same tactic as well. I dont have any judgement for her because i know how tough her life is. Too bad my parents dont read this piece of crap blog.