I know many people only realize once they are adults that they hate being one.. but i used to dread it even when i was in high school. Back then and even now as i observe my young cousins, all seem very eager to 'grow' up. They start dressing like adults sooner than they should, have gadgets and other 'wants' that its not really necessary for them and etc :P
Anyway, here's my take on what being an A.D.U.L.T means to me:
- ...when you learn how to wake up every morning (no matter how tired/sick you are) to go to work everyday and endure the horrible traffic snarl for ONE hour.
- ...when you feel obliged to accept a friend's invitation to go dinners or hang out even when you don't really feel like it because you don't feel well(and much rather rest at home).
- ...when in keeping with the above mentioned 'obligation', you drive for one hour all the way to a friend's while nursing a massive migraine.
- ...when you learn how to shut your mouth and not fight back because the 'past' HAVE taught you a thing or two about someone or some people.
- ...when you learn that sometimes letting go is easier and keeping quiet is better than blurting out your honest comment (naively).
- ...when you have to deal with un-wanted male attention and kinda know the gracious ways of handling the
delicatematter. - ...when you can't be upset (even though the 'younger version' of you would have) with your BFF for a cancellation of a much-awaited trip because your mind knows better that it is not her fault so you learn to deal with it even though you are bummed out.
- ...when you start understanding why people marry and learn to compromise each other.
- ...when you start respecting your parents for whatever they did for you and your family sake.
- ...when you finally get it that some people just don't like to open up and are testy when it comes to talking about themselves or about their lives.
- ...when you learn not to be upset by snide remarks your siblings/people make about you (even though after hearing them your tear ducts start working actively). And so, by next morning, you learn to let it pass.
- ...when you no longer fight with siblings/parents as much as you used to when in your teens.
- ...when you learn how to stand up for yourself and be confident about who you are instead of always hiding in the shadows of other popular sibling/friends.
- ...when you know
holymatrimony is looming ahead and knowing you can't run away from it forever despite being scared shit out of it ! :P - ...when you know you should move on and be happy even though you feel sad that a good friend is getting married soon and there's nothing you can do about it for the very sake of being practical and realistic.
reality DOES bite - ...when you no longer do the things you used to a year ago in regards to keeping a hatred for your Ex.
- ...when you attempt at being healthy for your mind, soul and body sake because you fear of cellulites/osteoporosis/diabetes/wrinkles etc.
- ...when it finally sinks in that your 'so called' best buddy isn't really your best buddy and instead of sulking or running away from that person, you just continue for the sake of not looking stupid or childish even though it hurts. But since you're an 'adult', you learn to accept it as part of life's parcel.
- ...when you do not get involved in petty fights amongst your colleagues because you choose to be friends to all sides and remain neutral. (Choosing sides in school life was bad enough to have it repeated again :P)
- ...when you have the freedom to start buying the things you like as you wish and not worry about the consequences.
- ...when you know that shit happens again and again... :P
- ...when you start using swear words (which precisely 4 years ago, you never would have dreamt that you would be saying them as casually as you do know) every now and then especially the F word.
What i wouldn't do just to go back to being in high school again... To be back in class 1 Cempaka doing artwork every Friday or having PJ (P.E class) every Monday morning, with nothing to worry except HOMEWORSKS and FRIENDS. Alas, not everyone is born a Benjamin Button now is there? :P
Summary: i hate being an adult. period.
Small talk: Watched 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button' on DVD last week. Unique. tad draggy (took me and my sis 3 nights after work to finish it) but its a nice love/family story. The same genre as Forrest Gump was.
